Alaida:

After I came back to our room, I couldn’t help but think about what happened in his office. Why did he told me the truth? It scared me thinking that he will do something to me. That something is obviously satisfying his needs. What if he had said that he is my husband so he have the right? At that moment I was only thinking about these things. That's why I got so scared and as a result I panicked.

Thankfully he wasn’t thinking of doing any of those negative things. He even assured me that he won't touch me without my permission. I think he is not that bad. Should I forgive him? He did apologized to me for what he did. He also helped me today though it's his duty to do so as my husband. But then again he is a nice person and a good husband that's why he helped me instead of leaving me alone.

I'm still not sure if he will be a good husband or not after how he behaved with me at first. I can hope that maybe from now on he will be a good husband. Maybe he won't hurt me again. Ugh I should stop thinking about it. Allah is here for me, He will help me and guide me. I trust Allah and that Allah will do whatever is good for me. If Ahren is not good for me then Allah will keep me away from him. I can only pray not to get hurt again and pray for Ahren to be a good husband.

At first I was frustrated with everything but now that I'm thinking about everything, I can't keep on hating Ahren at least not when he is slowly starting to be nice. My maa told me that marriage is not a joke. Even I believe that. If I keep hating him then our marriage won't work. To be honest I don't want a divorce cause people will say shit about my parents and me cause I'm a girl. Already people gossip a lot about me because of what happened. I don't want to give them another chance to gossip.

I will try to make things work between me and Ahren only if he co-operate with me. He have to treat me nicely in order for me to be nice with him. But obviously as I said I will test him to see if he actually changed or he is just pretending. That means I will try to piss him off to see if he will get angry with me and hurt me like how he did that day.

“What are you thinking so hard?” I snapped back to reality by maa's voice. I looked at the doorway to see her standing there. “Maa come inside.” I said as I stood up from the bed. She came inside then sat on the bed and made me sit too beside her. “Is Ahren treating you nicely?” I was taken aback by this sudden question. “Yes. Why?” I lied cause I'm a little bit afraid that what if Ahren gets angry like before?

Maa laughed at my answer making me confused. “Ahren already told me that he made a mistake. He have hurt you.” I froze in my place. He told his maa the truth? How could he? I mean he was supposed to hide this from his maa right? “I scolded him already. But why are you defending him?” I have no answer for her question. I don't know myself why I did that.

Maa held my both hands, looking at me lovingly. She is looking at me like how my maa looks at me. Suddenly I'm missing my maa. “Ahren have anger issues. Before you two got married I told him that he might end up hurting you because of this. He had promised me that he wouldn't yet he did.” His maa thought about me even before our marriage? That's so thoughtful of her.

“He had hurt your wrists, didn’t he?” I nodded my head unable to say anything. “Your neck- did he do that?” Maa asked hesitantly as if she is afraid to know the answer. “No! Someone else did it.” I blurted out the truth while trying to defend Ahren. Maa asked me who did it but I couldn’t bring myself to answer her. What should I say? How can I tell her about it? I'm afraid that she will judge me. “It's okay if you don't want to tell me. But make sure to tell Ahren so that he can help you, okay?” Once again I nodded my head.

It was silence for few minutes. None of us spoke but I didn’t mind the silence. “Give him one chance.” I looked at maa who is looking back at me. “He said he won't hurt you again so five him one chance. If he again hurts you then you can do whatever you want to do. And Ahren didn’t told me to tell you all these. I'm saying these on my own as his maa. He only told me what he did and that he is sorry for it but he don't know how to make it up to you. So he asked me what he should do.” The last statement made a smile appear on my face thinking that he cares enough for me to the point he didn’t hesitate to tell the truth to his maa and went to her for help to make it up to me.

“First I will test him to see if he is actually changing or not.” Maa smiled at me then placed a kiss on my forehead. “Make sure to take revenge on him for hurting you.” We both laughed at what she said. “Seems like you both are having fun.” We both turned our head to the way where the voice came from. Ahren stood in the doorway, leaning against the door. His sleeves rolled up. Damn it he is standing exactly like those fictional men in Korean dramas and books.

“That's between me and my daughter-in-law. You don't need to know.” Ahren groaned in annoyance and I snickered at him. “Come down for dinner.” Maa left leaving me and Ahren alone. He came inside looking at me. “Are you okay?” I nodded my head. “Okay then come downstairs.” He turned around to leave but I tugged on his shirt to make him stop. He again turned back to look at me, raising his eyebrows in confusion.

“Thank you.” With that saying I ran away from our room, going downstairs. I was on last stair when suddenly I stumbled back and I was about to fall down on the floor but before I could touch the floor, a pair of arms were wrapped around my waist and held me. I tilted my head to see it's Ahren. For a while I got lost in his eyes. I never looked at him this close but now that I'm seeing him from this close, I can't help but admire his features.

His jawline looks sharp enough like a knife. His nose is not that big neither that small. His cheeks seems soft enough for me to squish them. I have this urge to kiss him on his cheeks and touch. His lips looks soft. Lastly his brown eyes. They are so captivating. It feels like I can stare at his eyes all day without getting tired. How come I never realized these beautiful features of his before?

Ahren coughed which brought me back to reality. He unwrapped his arms. “You can stare at me all you want in our bedroom but not here cause maa is here.” He said more like he is teasing me. He is also smirking at me. My cheeks started heating up. I went to the dining area, sitting down on my chair. Maa is in the kitchen so I'm relieved to know that she didn’t saw me gawking at her son.

Ahren sat in front of me. Guess what? He is still smirking at me. I looked down to avoid looking at him. Maa soon came with our food. From next time I will make sure to help her and not let her work all alone. I served the food on everyone's plate, not letting her do this at least. I looked up to see Ahren staring at me. When he noticed me looking at him, he again smirked. Ugh this man is getting on my nerves. I regret admiring him.

I started to eat my food aggressively to show him that I'm annoyed at him. “Allah what happened my child? Slow down.” Maa told me while patting my back. I forgot that maa is also here. “Ahren did you do anything to my daughter?” I chocked on my food. I didn’t expected maa to ask him this. “No maa I didn’t do anything.” Maa then looked at me caressing my face. “Don't be scared of him okay? Tell me if he does something wrong.” Maa said while glaring at him.

“I was just really hungry that's why I was eating like that. Don't scold him.” Maa nodded her head. We ate in silence. After finishing dinner I went to wash the plates. Ahren came behind me while maa went back to her room. “Someone had fun in admiring me.” I glared at him. “I wasn’t admiring you!” Again he is smirking me. Can I punch him?

“Yes you were admiring me. Your eyes said everything.” I huffed in annoyance. I didn’t look at him as I kept washing the plates and he kept the plates on its respective place. At least he helped me instead of annoying me more. “Alaida.” He called me but I ignored him. I directly went to our room, fixing the bed. Today I didn’t pray my Salah. May Allah forgive me. I have to be regular in praying Salah from tomorrow.

“What are you thinking?” I got out of my thoughts after Ahren's question cause he asked it a bit loudly almost causing me to flinch. “Were you thinking about any boy?” Is he jealous? I looked at him carefully. He looks pissed off, his jaw clenched and his eyes darkening more as I wasn’t answering him. “Stupid husband. I was thinking about praying Salah regularly from tomorrow cause I didn’t pray today after everything that happened.”

He calmed down. Now I'm glaring at him as I crossed my hands over my chest. “Why would you think that I will think about another guy?” He remained quiet not answering me. I took a pillow from the bed then threw it on his face. Still, he remained quiet. I threw another pillow. I didn’t got any reaction from him so I threw two more pillows at him. Ya Allah I'm getting tired yet this man is standing like a statue.

“Are you done with venting out your anger on me?” I glared at him again. “Girls around your age have lots of crush that's why I thought that maybe you are thinking about a guy.” I took the last pillow and threw at him but this time he caught it. “At this point you will end up murdering me with these pillows.” If there were more pillows then I would've throw them all at him after what he said. How can someone be so stupid? He wouldn’t die because of these stupid pillows.

I took a deep breath to calm down myself before replying him for what he said a moment ago. “For your kind information my Korean men are enough for me to drool over them so I don't need to think about any other guy in real life.” His jaw clenched again as he took a step closer to me. I also took a step back from him. “And for your kind information you won't get those Korean men. You are stuck with me.” I narrowed my eyes at him. Now he is the one glaring at me.

This time I took a step closer to him looking at him. I'm not avoiding the eye contact today. Even though he is looking at me so intensely that I want to look away from him. “If I'm stuck with you then you are also stuck with me.” He kept looking at me blankly for a while before a smirk appeared on his face. “My fiore, time will tell that who is stuck with whom.” There was something different in his tone which I can't figure out. But the way he said this statement with that deep voice of his and that smirk it sent shivers down my spine. Why do I feel like there is something more to what he said?