Alaida:

It's been two days already since we got married. But we barely talk to each other. He acts like I don't exist and I act like he doesn’t exist. Though sometimes I feel frustrated with him. Why did he married me if he wanted to act like this? I know I ignore him. I also behaved rudely. So what? Shouldn’t he try to apologize? But no he is also being egoistic like me. After all it's all his fault. I was rude because of how he behaved. Why can't he understand that? He is so stupid!

“Alaida!” I flinched cause he called my name so loudly. “Sorry I didn’t meant to scare you but where are you lost?” His tone is like as if he is suspecting me. Suspecting me for what? “None of your business.” I huffed in annoyance. “It seems like you love it when I treat you like trash.” I glared at him. The audacity of this man!

I ignored him and stood up from the bed going towards the closet to get my clothes. I will go to college today so I need to get ready. I opened the bathroom door to enter inside when Ahren closed the door. This made me glare at him again. “What's your problem?”

Instead of answering me he kept looking at me blankly. “Everything you think about or do is my business.” Is he a psycho? “Get lost. I need to get ready.” I tried to push him away but in a second he slammed me against the bathroom door. My heart started to beat fast. Everything from our wedding day started flashing back in front of my eyes.

“If only you weren’t my wife I would've kill you already.” I shuddered in fear. He would've kill me? I guess he sensed my fear cause he quickly let go of me. My heart is beating so fast right now. How easy it was for him to say this line. If he thinks he can keep on behaving like this and I will forgive him then he is wrong.

As soon as he stepped back from me, I ran inside the bathroom. I can't stop cursing him because of how he behaves. Why does he keep hurting me? He is my husband yet I can't throw a tantrum in front of him? This shit really hurts. His one line broke my heart into pieces. Still I managed not to cry. I didn’t wanted to cry again that too because of him. I kept telling myself that I'm strong.

After few minutes I came out of the bathroom standing in front of the mirror. My morning got ruined by him. So how can I expect my first day at college to be good? I'm sure something bad will also happen there that's why I'm not expecting for anything good.  I won't even feel sad if my first day turns out to be bad cause nothing good happens in my life anyways.

I shook away these thoughts and fixed my hair then checked my outfit one last time. Today I wore a black kurti with jeans. I tied up my hair in a bun. Lastly I wore my sneakers. After that I took my bag then went downstairs for breakfast. I don't feel like eating but his maa will scold me if I don't.

“Good morning maa.”
“Good morning sweetheart. I will go make tea for you till then you finish eating.” I nodded my head and sat down. Ahren is looking at me but I'm ignoring him. I will keep ignoring him till he apologize. Though I won't forgive him easily. I might not even forgive him at all.

I could only eat one sandwich among the four sandwiches maa made for me. I can't eat more because of my nervousness. Maa came after a while with my tea. I took the cup. Well I can skip breakfast due to nervousness but not tea. Maa looked at my plate then at me while frowning. “I will throw up. I can't eat maa.” Thankfully she understood my situation and didn’t force me to eat.

After I finished my tea and he finished his coffee, we went outside getting inside his car. The car ride is obviously silent cause none of us is saying anything. I took out my phone scrolling through my social media when Ahren coughed. He coughed again and again. Is he doing this to get my attention? Whatever I still didn’t look at him.

“Why won't you speak to me?” I looked at him after he asked me this question. “What if you want to kill me for speaking to you?” He looked hurt. I was hurt too. He should have thought before saying that line to me. Now I don't care even if he is hurt. He needs to fix that attitude of his first in order not to to get hurt by me.

He didn’t say anything else neither I did. I got out of his car as soon as we reached in my college. I don't want to hear his lecture about staying away from guys. I already know where my classroom is so I didn’t had to search it thus I reached in my class quickly.

I sat down in the back seat. From school I always have been a backbencher. I don't like to socialize with anyone neither I want the teachers to notice me that's why. I took out a book from my bag and started reading it. I always read book in public not to feel awkward, that's what I'm doing here.

Till now my first day at college have been good. Good as in no one disturbed me. I was all alone on my own. Everyone already made friends except few who are like me. As I wanted even the teachers didn’t noticed me that much neither they told me to introduce myself.

One more class then college will end. I'm glad that at least nothing bad happened in college even though I was expecting something bad to happen. I smiled a little to myself thinking that Allah was kind enough to grant me peace for a while.

Soon last class ended meaning I can go home now. Yayy!! Everyone were leaving the classroom hurriedly, pushing each other on their way out so I stayed behind. I don't want to be pushed by those students. It's better to go at last. It took few minutes for all these students to leave the classroom.

I was walking down the corridor when I had the urge to pee. It will take time to reach home and I don't even know if Ahren came or he will be late. I can't hold it for that long so I decided to go to the bathroom. After using the bathroom I came out walking down the corridor again but this time I'm alone. Everyone left while I was in the bathroom.

I should hurry up cause if I get late then Ahren might get angry or misunderstand me for doing something else. I was walking while looking at my phone to see if Ahren called when I bumped into someone and my phone fell on the ground. “I'm sorr-” My words got stuck on my throat when I looked at the person in front of me.

“Missed me?” I stepped back from him. It feels like I can't breath. Why is he here? The worst part is that no is even here who will help me. I should have left the college building with everyone else instead of going to the bathroom. I can tell that I'm going to regret my decision so badly.