Aaran:

It's been five months after Zaria got well and could walk again. I wasn’t living with them but I got every news from Alaida. I felt so hurt to know about her condition after she became paralyzed. Good that I killed that motherfucker. He deserved to die after what he did. Because of him she was hurt.

Zaria went through many things because of me, Asael and our enemy. I actually feel so bad for her. No one deserves that. Look at her, she got hurt so many times still she is the same cheerful, sunshine girl. She forgave Asael, maa and Huriya except me. I didn’t even apologized to her this time so how can I even expect her to forgive me? I'm such an idiot. 

She is three months pregnant now. I didn’t felt angry or hurt after this news. Rather, I felt happy. My love is happy with her love. It feels wrong to say my love still I will say that. I will let people to make me stay away from her but I won't give them the right to make me stop loving HER.

I never planned to come back to London but I had to come because baba called me. Then I took over the mafia so now I can't leave anymore. I only decided to take over the mafia for her. Because the people of mafia wouldn’t let Asael leave and keep hurting her. Now that she is pregnant also working in a company I'm more worried about her safety though I know Asael already tightened her security. He can do his job, I will do mine.

It's still dangerous cause even if Asael is not the leader, I became the leader so my enemies can hurt my family including her. In these five months I made many enemies. I killed many people. Well they talk shit and say useless things. Allah gave them a brain to use it but they don't use it at all. So what's the point of living? Also because I hate people who talk too much unnecessarily and illogically so let me just kill them. Just by thinking about these people makes me damn pissed off.

“Don't get so lost in your thoughts.” I came back to reality by Ahren's voice. I have this bad habit of getting lost in my thoughts always. I glared at him which was enough to shut him up. One thing about him is that he respect me. Why is that? Because he is my junior and younger than me.

We have a story of becoming best friends. When we were in school he was getting bullied by some seniors so I helped him out not once but many times.  We started talking then we became really good friends because we both are grumpy and alike in many ways.

Ahren is three years younger than me. Shocking right? But who cares about that? What matters is that he is my best friend and understand me the most. Though he is more mature than me maybe because he lost his father at such a young age. He lost his father when he was only 10 years old. He now lives only with his mother who means the world for him. Though he told me once that besides his mother there is a girl who means the world for him. I asked who is that she but this guy refuse to tell me anything yet. “Come back to reality you bastard.” I glared at him again. “Respect me you kid.” He put his arm around my shoulder. “We are best friends remember? So I can disrespect you also.” Okay he won this time.

“What did you thought about the marriage proposal?” Oh that, one of baba's mafia friend sent a marriage proposal. My family wants me to marry his daughter of course. Maa said that she will forgive me if I get married. I do want maa to forgive me but I won't ruin  a girl's life for that. Her life will become hell if she marry a heartless bastard like me who still loves his first love. It will be unfair to her. Moreover I heard she have a boyfriend. I won't become the third person in their love story. “I will say no.” Thankfully, Ahren didn’t said anything else about this topic. After spending some time with Ahren I went to our house, that house where everyone lives together except me. 

As soon as I entered inside Alaida came rushing towards me, hugging me tightly. I know she miss me all the time. I also miss her but I won't admit that in front of her. “Eww! You stink.” She glared at me then hit me on my arm before going back to her room. I greeted my parents. They greeted me back but maa wasn’t looking at me. She is upset that I didn’t share anything with her about Zaria and mostly because I had kidnapped her.

“You don't have to think about the marriage proposal anymore.” I looked at baba confused. How come he changed his mind suddenly? “She got engaged to her boyfriend.” Good for me. Also happy for her. She don't have to marry someone like me. “After two days I'm throwing a party since it's your and Asael's birthday. You have to come! I won't hear any excuses.” Birthday party? What are we? Kids? “It's Asael's birthday after he got married and Zaria also gave us a good news so I decided to throw a party and you have to come.” Baba said sternly.

I know no excuses will work on him but I can give one excuse which might work. “The party is mostly for Asael so it doesn’t matter even if I don't attend.” Baba is looking at me blankly. I hate it whenever baba look at me like that. “You will come and that's final.” With that saying he left. We are fucking adults so why do he have throw a birthday party for us? But I don't have any choice now. Cause if I don't attend the party then baba will throw his shoes at me instead of throwing the party.

But I'm happy cause I can also see Zaria at least though I won't come in front of her. I will watch her from far away. It's her love's birthday and I wouldn’t ruin that day by coming in front of her. Not that day only I won't ruin any day of hers neither I will let anyone else do that.